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bl69 34, Female, Texas, USA - 32 entries

Mar 2007
1:10 PM CDT

"But as sure as God made black and white What's done in the dark will be brought to the light." --Johnny Cash. I am going to tell my mom this..because SHE needs to know that i know she is on drugs. and not just any drugs..pretty much the worse u can get!!! uugh! But I won't. Because i have already tried confronting her and she told me that it was fucked up of me to even think that..EVEN THOUGH after frankie died she told me that i needed to make sure she stayed sober and if i even expected THE LITTLIST THING to let her know. and i did. but nooo i am just a fucked up person for even thinking that. psshh whatever woman..if u are going down the drain then sorry can't help ya..i try so hard but theres only so much u can do. one weekend she actually admitted to it and then didnt feel guilty about it because "she doesnt ever do it" so she says. but now its an every day habit. i walk in on her all the time. and i just pretend like i didnt say shit. uuugh the feeling sucks!!! i just want to escape. i got places to go so no worries. but its so hard. because the only harm she is doing for me is MONEY!! we have none of it!!!! and it sucks! we dont even have a phone anymore!!! and theres a 500 dollar check that comes in the mail each month for child support from my dad. and it just pisses me off because she doesnt give me shit. and i understand if she was paying the bills with it but her drug habit isnt a fuckin bill. i even gave her 20 bucks last week. to buy weed. which i dont mind..because i will just end up taking it. but still..she gets payed every tuesday and she is already broke! ITS ONLY THURSDAY! and she gets like a 400 dollar check every week. its only us 2 living at this house so the bills shouldnt be too bad. and the house is like 450 a month. i know she can manage and have money left over because we have done it. so she cant give me the bills excuse bullshit. she wants to leave the state. and is serious about it and maybe it could do better for her but i am not going. DEAD SERIOUS i will not go. so she said she will wait till i graduate but by then i am sure she will be all sorts of fucked off. and it sucks because whenever she isnt on drugs then she is just a piece of shit. nothing can make her happy besides the drugs. and frankie was her anti-drug. but now its nothing. nothing nothing nothing nothing. nothing is everything lately and whats worth nothing? nothing so i should just leave.

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monica31923 50, Female, Virginia, USA - 3 entries

Mar 2007
1:33 PM EDT

Today was a big math test. Who knows what grade i got. I am sooo glad i only have 1 1/2 of a school year!!!!!!!!

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Angela Wang 47, Female, China - 73 entries

Mar 2007
9:18 PM EDT

It is getting warmer and warmerin recent days in Nanjing. With the warmer weather drawing near, the mood of people is also becoming better, oh, it is only my guess. In the spring, trees begin to grow new leaves gradually and some of the flowers start to show their beauty to human. But the spring in Nanjing is shorter thanthat in other plarts ofChina. Hereabouthalfyear is in the season of summer.The spring and fall always run away from us quickly. So the people here have to prepare many T-shirts for hot summer. It is so ordinary that you have to change 2-3 T-shirtsa day in summer. Therefore as for me, I am afraid of too hot summerbecause I was born in the northwest of China whereit has a very distinguishedseasons. It is important that the summer in my hometown is not so hot and the climate is dry and atmosphere pressure is much lower. So I have already adapted to the climate there andam not accustomed to suchextreme climate. I really hope this summer will be a cooler one in Nanjing.

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highlyfavored484 42, Female, New York, USA - 5 entries

Mar 2007
7:07 AM EDT

life is great

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earthangel 72, Male, Canada - 11 entries

Mar 2007
2:38 PM PST

Oh well what can I say. Except I would really like to know when are Bush's boys going to make the first strike against Iran. Which personally I think is full of shit and I am tottally against. I already know the Americans blew up the towers themselves and then decided to blame Arabs for it so they could start an oil war over there but I guess there wasn't enough oil in Iraq so they have to go into Iran and control the rest. because any idiot that thinks the towers came down just with those planes need to have thier heads examined. Those towers came straight down. Straight down as if blown up from the bottom by a demolision team. That is the only way they could come down. Look at the film again and again and anyone can see that plus how come BBC had footage of one of the towers going being reported going down before it even went down. The whole thing was staged to put fear into people so people would hate Arabs and give the Bush boys reason to send in his army and his secret army that not many know about to control countries and oil. So now here is Iran only doing shit thatAmericans do and they get racked over the coals for it. See I have no sympathy anymore for the states or for Britian and if you say that makes me an Arab sympathyzer well then I guess I am. I have just had too much truthn exposed to me to know the truth of this war now and see that Britian and America or just trouble makers trying to control the rest of the world and if you do not go along with them then your country is next.

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irishgirl 38, Female, Michigan, USA - 4 entries

Mar 2007
6:37 PM EDT

I recently saw the movie 300 and I recommend that if you haven't seen it you should. by far the best movie I have seen in years.

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charlax 71, Male, Arizona, USA - 744 entries

Mar 2007
3:33 AM MST

write thyself a letter oh Pascal and make it longer than just one

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Daydreamer 37, Female, Australia - 26 entries

Mar 2007
5:43 PM EDT

Do you really think that it possible for someone to spend their whole life without the chance to fall in love?

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shirleyxu 55, Female, China - 301 entries

Mar 2007
8:20 AM EST

I can see that Don Don have changed a lot since we came to Shanghai Sept. last year. The city energized him to a highly motivated boy. He got 2 good freinds at school and he felt the love from his teachers. I knew how important all these to a boy of 10 year old as I still remember my freinds faces when I was 10 ys old and the warmness from my school teacher's lovely smile is still with me even now.

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heartbreak2007 37, Female, Pennsylvania, USA - 27 entries

Mar 2007
5:11 AM EDT

Hey now what's up? Not too much here just chilling up in study hall being all bored and shit. Well last night I talked to Justin and he had told me the reason he moved down to Florida was because he didn't like seeing me upset every night when he had to go and sleep in the park so he wanted to get his life back on track. Well um................................................................................

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things are crazy right now because yeah I don't have any money saved up so I am going to probably go down to Florida in Septmber or October. I need to save some money up because I can't just go down there and be broke and expect Justin to pay for everything. Well um......he had talked to the Applebee's down there and they said that I can just take my application from my work and fill it out and then send it to Justin down there and then have him take it in for me. I don't knwo though. He said he looked at my pictures last night that I sent him and he said it is weird since he hasn't seen me in forever. He said he has been talking about me at work to this girl to figure out if it is a good thing or a bad thing for me to go down there. He said that all he has been doing is talking about the good and the bad to her and he is going to take in the pictures so he can show her the pics and see what she thinks of me. It is also so she can see me and not just try to figure out what I look like. He told me that he loves me last night three times. It was weird and he told me to sleep well beautiful. well i am sick and tired of applebees sometimes because they keep hiring more and more people. I am going to go .

you know who this is.........

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